January 25, 2012

Dia kan ada.

alhamdulillah dah TUJUH BELAS TAHUN bernafas. dan akan terus bernafas selagi berpeluang. Insyallah :) biasa orang cakap, SWEET SEVENTEEN. nak tanya what does it means actually? apa yang sweet sangat eh? hm just don't get it -,-

nothing special on this year. no celebration. no cake. no laughing. no tepung. no telur. but alhamdulillah still got wishes. alhamdulillah still got Sabrina Kamal, si peneman setia <3 maybe aku dah terbiasa dirai but when it come to this, i felt a bit weird. sad for sure. like no one is really care about me. ya aku dah terbiasa. dah terbiasa tak bersyukur. astaghfirullahalazim :'( 

what is so sad about? takde cake? takde lilin? no. no it isn't. it's about my family. ya aku boleh paham kalau takde all that stuff but am i supposed to be such an attention seeker to my own family? why treat me macam aku tak wujud? i don't want much. simple wishes straightly via them, hug and kisses will be such a wonderful gift to me. so sad, i didn't get even one of it. my thought, my birthday this year kat rumah lah :D *excited* wahhhhh awesomeeee la boleh sambut dgn family :DD *excited lagi* but then... nah it's alright :') still appreciate :') at last i decided to baca Yassin and borak mengadu kat Dia :')

to mama&abah.
Nina sangat bersyukur ada mama&abah. terima kasih tak terhingga atas kewujudan Nina di muka bumi-Nya ini. terima kasih dah besarkan Nina sampai tujuh belas tahun ni. terima kasih tahan dengan segala perangai Nina. terima kasih. hanya itu yang mampu terucap. I'm not a good daughter. I never be one. Sorry. But I'm on my way ma&abah. to proud both you. to see the smile on the faces of both you. But then,  I really need ma& abah punya doa in other to that. Nina tak pernah lupa doakan ma&abah cause just that yang Nina mampu for this time being :)

to siblings.
Sorry for not being such a good example to both you :( aku bukan kakak yang baik. jangan contoh aku. aisyah, contoh ejat okay. bukan kakak. kalian sentiasa dalam doa kakak :)

sejak aku dekat dengan Dia, perlu diakui aku rasa ketenangan tu. tu yang buat aku lagi nak dekat and dekat and dekat dengan Dia. aku seru, korang cuba lah. mesti korang rasa. Insyallah. sebab susah nak cerita rasa tu. even birthday aku tak yg macam aku impi, aku bersyukur ada Dia. aku mengadu kat Dia lah semalam. menangis-nangis sampai tetido :) tapi after that, i felt lega and now aku dah okay :) nasib baik ada Dia. alhamdulillah ...